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Anonymous asked:

I have some friends who self harm (as do I, but that's a different story) and/or are severely depressed. To support them, I've decided to make two paper butterflies for all of my friends who need support, giving one to them, and keeping one for myself, just so that they know I'm there for them whenever they need help.

That is a wonderful thing to do and I hope it is helping

Anonymous

Anonymous asked:

Could you tell us about yourself?

I’m 18 and I have been cutting off and on since I was 13. I got started cutting cause my brother had been doing it and he said that it took his pain away. At 13, I was willing to try anything. I know you are wondering what kind of pain I was in when I was that young, what was so horrible.
When I was 9 I was molested by my best friend. And when I was 10 my brother almost took my virginity. I haven’t told many people about what happened, it took me 5 years to be able to deal with what happened.
By the time I was 13, I had become a zombie. I was physically there but it was like my emotions died, all I could feel was pain. That’s why I started cutting.
It felt great. It took my pain away for short bursts of time and I started to feel human again. I started off slow and only cut every few months because I knew it wasn’t healthy, but I needed it.
Eventually I was slowly building trust towards guys again and I tried dating. That was a horrible idea. I seemed to be drawn to guys that were nice at first, but then became jerks that were just using me. That’s when the cutting got worse and more frequent. I lost trust again but I kept dating jerks because I got addicted to cutting and I felt like it was justifiable because I was being hurt by jerks.
2 years ago a friend introduced me to one of her friends and we really clicked and started dating. He was 9 years older than me and hundreds of miles away. There were a lot of problems that were caused because of that. I wasn’t able to trust Him cause I thought he was cheating all the time. We were off and on for awhile. My cutting got really bad during this period, I was doing it once or twice every week. We eventually decided we couldn’t handle it anymore and broke up. A couple months went by and we both decided that we really missed each other, so we started dating again. After a month we were doing great and were not fighting. But he had decided that he couldn’t go without the physical part of a relationship and he stopped talking to me. After about 5 months we had both found someone new and agreed that we couldn’t live without being apart of each others lives, so we became best friends and have started that way without any fighting for over a year. Then about a year ago this guy came into my life. He was very controlling but he cared about my cutting and worked hard to help me to stop. Of course it didn’t work because his controllingness (made a new word according to my phone) was hurting me. He tried to make me become something I wasn’t. It kind of worked for a little bit, I became the submissive girlfriend he wanted because I thought he really cared about me and that I wouldn’t be able to do any better than him.
Am old friend had come back into my life and he gave me the courage to leave the controlling bastard. And I started dating my friend and I stopped cutting so much, it was back down to every few months. He treated me great. He was always there for me even though he was hundreds of miles away. After a couple months of dating, I found out that he was engaged to another girl and had been for half a year. I dumped his ass and told him never to contact me again. And I contacted his fiancée and told her that he had been cheating on her and they are still together. The night that that happened, I cut myself and made 15 cuts, I have only ever done 3 cuts at a time. I have 25 scars on my right thigh now. That was the last time I cut. I have been clean since January 26th.
And I met a new guy who is a true gentleman and is really taking care of me. I even introduced him to my parents and they really like him. I’m starting to fall for him.

Anonymous

Anonymous asked:

The original butterfly project didn't work for me, but I don't know how to make origami butterflies either. Instead when I feel the need to cut I just write poetry on my tumblr blog.

I love that idea and I am happy it works for you. I encourage everyone to try different things and do what works for them.
If you want to make the origami, there is a video link in the about section.

Anonymous

Anonymous asked:

Your about says this page is for people who are trying to stop self harming, can this also be for ones that support people that trying to stop?

Absolutely

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